OK, I think it's time to call "Susan from Ghost-Whispers or "Ghost-Hunters. Loud banging on the door waking me up only to find "no-one at the door. Then awaken again to the sound of a childs crys from my closet. When I open the door I see a kid perhaps only 5-6 yrs of age- stooped down, hiding his face with both hands- he pleads "please dont let him hurt me.
I ask how he got in there, & where he was from. He slowly lowers his hands to look up @ me, but "he dont have a face. no nose no eyes, no mouth. He then whispers in a loud anger "you know me! I start to freak-out & wind up falling out of bed. Then I wake again to loud gun-fire & find myself in a trench dressed in a "WW1 army out-fit. The officer, 10-12 feet from me yelling @ me saying; "Craig, "fire your weapon, "thats an order! so, I fired it & it backfired.
I had aimed it @ the officer in charge. I then awake in my bed to the stillness and the silence of the nite. sitting-up slowly in a cold sweat. I havent had those kind of dreams since I was in my pre-teen's. I kind of think it all just a "message- "out of curosity I did a little back-ground search thru Google only to discover that there "was" a Veteran of WW1 by the name; Lonnie Craig- "But what did all the rest of those dreams mean? "Or were they just "reminders from the distant past...?
Monday, July 11, 2011
Sunday, July 10, 2011
My Last Letter To God
My Last Letter To God;
Dear God,
I think we really need to talk & due to the content- I think it only fair to let others become witness of this "one-way" conversation, just like it has always been since the early days of my child-hood. "Why was it that "every prayer I had ever prayed was always "ignored? You never even sent a messenger- & if you did, "you forgot to give me the wisdom to understand the message. "Not even one prayer was ever answered- yet millions of folks swear up & down that their prayers were "always answered. I dont get it.
I wasted over 30 years always trying to do the right thing- even gave you out-right permission to have me possessed with any Prophet or "Angel of wisdom of your choice- even invited the Holy-spirit to possess me. But even that invitation was ignored. 99% of all my prayers were (un-selfish) in my younger days. The other 1% percent was always out of desparation. Even unto this very day; "You still keep your silence. (Why?) Whats so special about those other folk who claim to always get their prayers answered? You already know that I was raised in a very strict & orthodox home with prayers before meals & prayer "after meals? "Prayers before bed-time & prayers upon awakening? "Daily bible readings with "random pop quizzes from Dad & if I gave him an incorrect answer; it meant NO TV or "to bed without supper? Do you remember those good old days!? "I sure do, & I cant let them go- as much as I would like to forget those days, "they still continue to haunt me today.
"Jesus was the daily house-hold name for years & years to come. When I finally left home as a (leagle adult), I felt like I had been released from "prison" yet, less than even one year later- I started having disturbing dreams about all those Preachers & Bible teachers I had to endure all of their "Hell fire & damnation-lessons. "Even had a visiting minister yell at me saying: "Boy- your going strait to hell & Gods grace will not save you! "I was only 7 years old. I couldnt see what the big deal was. It was just a cigarrett he caught me with + "taking Gods name in vain by my hollering "God-dammit, upon my capture. You see- back then; "if you smoked (anything) it was considered "sin against your own body & taking Gods name in vain was called the "unpardonable one,...regardless of your age group. "Do you remember those days God? "I sure do & when I caught the preacher in "church kissing another mans wife in the break-room, that preacher let loose of all kinds of vain references to your name. I was about 8 at that time.
Do you recall the time I caught a group of visiting singers lighting up in the back of the church-building during "intermission at that camp-meeting revival? Do you recall all those vain references to your name that they hailed toward me then saying; "kid- if you tell anyone about what you seen us doing, we will throw your ass in hell ourself. I was only 9 years old & "...God? "I do hope you know that those were not "cigarretts they were burning...:) Here I am today @ the age of 57. I havent smoked anything since I was 25- but, then again I have asthma to thank for that one. Just one more question- & Im done and I promise that you will never hear another prayer from my lips... "Why did you allow my wife "Maryann to die on the delivery-table along with our child in 1986? I had already offered myself in their place. Were they more worthy of being a better-sacrifice in the name of your "Vain-glory than "myself? I will understand- if you never answer that one and "now, you will have to endure my silence, but my wrath toward your choice of cruilties will remain in "your face "forever. The bottom-line is; "You could have spared me from all of the above- unless, your not really so "all mighty after all?... "CHOW!
Dear God,
I think we really need to talk & due to the content- I think it only fair to let others become witness of this "one-way" conversation, just like it has always been since the early days of my child-hood. "Why was it that "every prayer I had ever prayed was always "ignored? You never even sent a messenger- & if you did, "you forgot to give me the wisdom to understand the message. "Not even one prayer was ever answered- yet millions of folks swear up & down that their prayers were "always answered. I dont get it.
I wasted over 30 years always trying to do the right thing- even gave you out-right permission to have me possessed with any Prophet or "Angel of wisdom of your choice- even invited the Holy-spirit to possess me. But even that invitation was ignored. 99% of all my prayers were (un-selfish) in my younger days. The other 1% percent was always out of desparation. Even unto this very day; "You still keep your silence. (Why?) Whats so special about those other folk who claim to always get their prayers answered? You already know that I was raised in a very strict & orthodox home with prayers before meals & prayer "after meals? "Prayers before bed-time & prayers upon awakening? "Daily bible readings with "random pop quizzes from Dad & if I gave him an incorrect answer; it meant NO TV or "to bed without supper? Do you remember those good old days!? "I sure do, & I cant let them go- as much as I would like to forget those days, "they still continue to haunt me today.
"Jesus was the daily house-hold name for years & years to come. When I finally left home as a (leagle adult), I felt like I had been released from "prison" yet, less than even one year later- I started having disturbing dreams about all those Preachers & Bible teachers I had to endure all of their "Hell fire & damnation-lessons. "Even had a visiting minister yell at me saying: "Boy- your going strait to hell & Gods grace will not save you! "I was only 7 years old. I couldnt see what the big deal was. It was just a cigarrett he caught me with + "taking Gods name in vain by my hollering "God-dammit, upon my capture. You see- back then; "if you smoked (anything) it was considered "sin against your own body & taking Gods name in vain was called the "unpardonable one,...regardless of your age group. "Do you remember those days God? "I sure do & when I caught the preacher in "church kissing another mans wife in the break-room, that preacher let loose of all kinds of vain references to your name. I was about 8 at that time.
Do you recall the time I caught a group of visiting singers lighting up in the back of the church-building during "intermission at that camp-meeting revival? Do you recall all those vain references to your name that they hailed toward me then saying; "kid- if you tell anyone about what you seen us doing, we will throw your ass in hell ourself. I was only 9 years old & "...God? "I do hope you know that those were not "cigarretts they were burning...:) Here I am today @ the age of 57. I havent smoked anything since I was 25- but, then again I have asthma to thank for that one. Just one more question- & Im done and I promise that you will never hear another prayer from my lips... "Why did you allow my wife "Maryann to die on the delivery-table along with our child in 1986? I had already offered myself in their place. Were they more worthy of being a better-sacrifice in the name of your "Vain-glory than "myself? I will understand- if you never answer that one and "now, you will have to endure my silence, but my wrath toward your choice of cruilties will remain in "your face "forever. The bottom-line is; "You could have spared me from all of the above- unless, your not really so "all mighty after all?... "CHOW!
Saturday, July 9, 2011
"Justifiable Faith...?
The Just Shall Live By Faith?
"What is "faith- but "over-calculated (blind trust). What makes the "blind so just? The justification is only "according to what the (blind) believe is "justifiable according to the word of their own "leaders- such as law makers that convince the "blind" of what is (right vs the un-rightious?" Do you live by the letter of the law or by; "the spirit of the law?' which means simply doing the right things for the "right reasons...?
Did Jesus truly rise from the dead- or are you just going by what the book said? Did your own eyes see this resurrection- because if u were not an "eye-witness, "this makes you a "false-witness according to the written law, back then & even now.
So, if you confess that Jesus a-rose & didnt see it yourself with your own eyes; "This would make you a false witness for "Jesus. If you havent caught on by now; the written law means nothing to God- It meant "leader-ship opportunities to Moses & to those whom he had chosen to lead after his own dimise. Moses was only a "sorcerer" trained by Egypts best "wizards & sorcerers, "all according to the Old-testament writers
The Silent Killer
The Silent Killer;
"STRESS"
Known to cause "heart failure even in very healthy hearts. Strokes, false symptoms- which can eventually turn into the real thing. "How?" Stress is nothing more than "trapped energy that has no place to go. "Stress & fear" go hand in hand. Some shrinks say the only difference between the two is called "the spelling. Most Shrinks will tell you that, "You can be suffering from stress & not even know it- much like a few rare "heart attack victims who have heart-failure with "no symptoms, like my dad who thought it was just (indigestion) which wind up becoming "triple heart by-pass two yrs ago today.
He survived- and as today; Iv had him on close observation since then but over the last 2-3 yrs Iv learned that those who have a "very high pain tolerance level are the greater ones at risk. I have also learned that thru "deep hypnosis & deep meditation, you can put every pain sensor in your body asleep- so, how do we fix this global problem?
First find a family doctor that "really cares & I guarentee you that you will (know which ones really care) all on the 1st visit. "Just pay close attention to what the doc tells you & pay very special attention to what they "fail to tell you". Get a yearly check-up. So, guard your heart- "no one else can do it for you...
"STRESS"
Known to cause "heart failure even in very healthy hearts. Strokes, false symptoms- which can eventually turn into the real thing. "How?" Stress is nothing more than "trapped energy that has no place to go. "Stress & fear" go hand in hand. Some shrinks say the only difference between the two is called "the spelling. Most Shrinks will tell you that, "You can be suffering from stress & not even know it- much like a few rare "heart attack victims who have heart-failure with "no symptoms, like my dad who thought it was just (indigestion) which wind up becoming "triple heart by-pass two yrs ago today.
He survived- and as today; Iv had him on close observation since then but over the last 2-3 yrs Iv learned that those who have a "very high pain tolerance level are the greater ones at risk. I have also learned that thru "deep hypnosis & deep meditation, you can put every pain sensor in your body asleep- so, how do we fix this global problem?
First find a family doctor that "really cares & I guarentee you that you will (know which ones really care) all on the 1st visit. "Just pay close attention to what the doc tells you & pay very special attention to what they "fail to tell you". Get a yearly check-up. So, guard your heart- "no one else can do it for you...
Monday, July 4, 2011
24 Hours Lost
I lost my last 24 hrs & cant remember where I put them. Cant even remember going to work that day. I woke @ 5:AM, sitting on the back-porch with my eyes wide open- staring @ the stars- I used to sleep-walk as a kid. been sober all month. "What happen?
Sunday, July 3, 2011
Gods Of Chaos?
Worlds Greatest Challenges...?
With all the "challenges we have ever faced as a nation or "individual today- is to "be different". Our entire world is grown & bent on (diversity). A melting-pot of diverse talent,color,religions including (ideas) & talent. Once any nation reaches a peak where "everything" is (uniform) of "one color, one religion one (idea)-That nation begins to sink & spiral down-ward in slow motion, and toward it's end- the spiral always becomes faster.
We have many types of flowers & Mother-nature is still inventing "different types" & color every 3 to 9 years. Every flower we have today has some type of "medicinial" property.
Thats a good thing since "new strains" of bacterial infectious disease are also being "discovered, every 3-9 years which are found to be (now-immune) to many-common & popular/modern antibiotic treatments. Some folks say; "diversity is (chaos). "But "chaos is "natural" and, An invention of "Mother-nature & so "are we. Can "chaos be planned? (of course.)...:) Whom should we pray unto? "Simply pray to "your heart"...Just give your heart a name...:)
Friday, July 1, 2011
What Are "Ghost's?
WHAT ARE GHOST's
Proof Is In The Pudding;
From a "scientific point of view" They are only "holograms or as some say; (memory-shadows). But what is (memory?) According to physics; "memory- is pure energy- or (raw-energy impulses) left behind by the demised is question- yet all of these compilations are simply (theory). Yet "everything, is a theory until it is proven as an "absolute".
The theory of Einsteins E2=MC Square was "proven correct- therefore invalidating that theory as only a (theory.) You & I were only "theory" until the day of our physical birth. Everything human and non-human will all one day become (demised) due to decay thru time & abuse- but the (energy) which drove that "physical-mass cannot be distroyed.
It cannot be created in a lab- however, it can be stretched, compressed or (re-directed) But, energy cannot be created nor distroyed. So, where does that energy go after our physical-dimise? "Heaven & Hell are still only (theory) as of this day. "What about "Nirvana or The "Great summer-land? "Still only theory until PROVEN; as an absolute. My 9 minute clinical-death in 1974 proved to be most comforting to me. During those "9" minutes- which seemed more like (9 hrs) I toured Heaven- Hell & the Great Summer-lands + "the emerald-caves and "Nirvana as well. The one thing I remember very well is that in all of those places; there was no pain, no suffering & no tears of grief or regret..."but, again; All of those experiences are only (theory) to the ears & eyes of those who havent gone thru the experience...(yet)
Proof Is In The Pudding;
From a "scientific point of view" They are only "holograms or as some say; (memory-shadows). But what is (memory?) According to physics; "memory- is pure energy- or (raw-energy impulses) left behind by the demised is question- yet all of these compilations are simply (theory). Yet "everything, is a theory until it is proven as an "absolute".
The theory of Einsteins E2=MC Square was "proven correct- therefore invalidating that theory as only a (theory.) You & I were only "theory" until the day of our physical birth. Everything human and non-human will all one day become (demised) due to decay thru time & abuse- but the (energy) which drove that "physical-mass cannot be distroyed.
It cannot be created in a lab- however, it can be stretched, compressed or (re-directed) But, energy cannot be created nor distroyed. So, where does that energy go after our physical-dimise? "Heaven & Hell are still only (theory) as of this day. "What about "Nirvana or The "Great summer-land? "Still only theory until PROVEN; as an absolute. My 9 minute clinical-death in 1974 proved to be most comforting to me. During those "9" minutes- which seemed more like (9 hrs) I toured Heaven- Hell & the Great Summer-lands + "the emerald-caves and "Nirvana as well. The one thing I remember very well is that in all of those places; there was no pain, no suffering & no tears of grief or regret..."but, again; All of those experiences are only (theory) to the ears & eyes of those who havent gone thru the experience...(yet)
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